Day 2 – Page 2

I awoke this morning in panic.  What if I can’t overcome these challenges?  What if the stars don’t align in our favor?  What if I fail?  It’s so easy to let yourself be consumed by doubt, by fear.  I have been in this place for awhile now – afraid we aren’t going to see daylight again and everything we have worked so hard for will be for naught.  Doubts.  So many doubts.  So many that I become immobilized.  And that means the doubt wins.

“Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.”  Being a designer and artist, you aren’t putting a quilt out there to be judged, you are putting yourself out there.  It’s hard.  And that nagging little voice keeps yapping.  We learned in a training course that the little voice is referred to as your “monkey mind”.  To overcome it, we had to write down everything our monkey mind said over a week’s course.  You hardly pay it any mind, but that little voice is very negative…and it affects what you do, and the way you do it.

So, the only thing I can do is try.  Take action.  MOVE!  I spent the day in the studio working. designing – something I haven’t done much of lately.  It felt refreshing. And I accomplished things.  I can’t share them yet, but I will soon.  Creativity is my outlet, and I have to learn to rely on it to keep me moving forward.  I don’t have to worry that everyone likes what I do – I just have to worry that I like it.  And if I like it, I’m sure there will be others as well.  On a scale of 1 – 10, I would rate today an 8.  If there were sand and a palm tree outside instead of snow – then it would be a 10!  =)

What do you do when doubt creeps in and affects your momentum?