Doubts

Day 2 – Page 2
I awoke this morning in panic. What if I can’t overcome these challenges? What if the stars don’t align in our favor? What if I fail? It’s so easy to let yourself be consumed by doubt, by fear. I have been in this place for awhile now – afraid we aren’t going to see daylight again and everything we have worked so hard for will be for naught. Doubts. So many doubts. So many that I become immobilized. And that means the doubt wins.
“Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will.” Being a designer and artist, you aren’t putting a quilt out there to be judged, you are putting yourself out there. It’s hard. And that nagging little voice keeps yapping. We learned in a training course that the little voice is referred to as your “monkey mind”. To overcome it, we had to write down everything our monkey mind said over a week’s course. You hardly pay it any mind, but that little voice is very negative…and it affects what you do, and the way you do it.
So, the only thing I can do is try. Take action. MOVE! I spent the day in the studio working. designing – something I haven’t done much of lately. It felt refreshing. And I accomplished things. I can’t share them yet, but I will soon. Creativity is my outlet, and I have to learn to rely on it to keep me moving forward. I don’t have to worry that everyone likes what I do – I just have to worry that I like it. And if I like it, I’m sure there will be others as well. On a scale of 1 – 10, I would rate today an 8. If there were sand and a palm tree outside instead of snow – then it would be a 10! =)
What do you do when doubt creeps in and affects your momentum?